Okay i got nothing better to do but sit her and write in my journal since i have to soak my toe to remove the nail. Anyone who pittys me please reply maybe we can chat on this thing so i am not so board. I wrote some poem while thinking.

An hour ago i sat here crying wondering when this all would end                                            

An hour ago you sat there telling me that i was the prettest thing in the world

Now we are here in this moment forever bonded

I never knew how i would make it throught his world

That was until i met you.

Now i am not sure how i will make it without you

I use to think of the world as the place that i would suffer in

Now i think that the world is a beautiful place and i need to see more of it.

You gave me such a bright outlook on the world

i can't ever thank you for all you have given to me.

I am back to write about the rest of the story. He is always asking me why God put us so far appart and the only thing that i can think of is that God wanted us to learn to be friends and accept each other without being together. I know that if we had been close to each other we would never have gotten together becaus we are two different souls that met by chance. If we had been close a lot of stuff would have gone on that i know he would have regreted because of how things would have gone down afterwards. I love him to peices and i know he loves me because what guy would stick around while the pretty girl crys and makes those ugly faces. He keeps telling me that i can't make any ugly faces but we all know that ugly face where your just scrunching everything up and just look scary. We were up pretty late last night talking so i honestly didn't think he would be up before noon to talk to me. But amazingly i was awake at like 10 and there was this message about how i looked so pretty in the morning and i should send him a picture of it. now if that ain't love then god who knows what it is. He is sending me the shirt he was wearing this morning because i told him i wanted something to sleep in. He doesn't want me sleeping in James shirt anymore. I think he is a little jealious of James because he sees me and gets to give me kisses. I should mention James is my Gay babe and my new gay lover.  I am going to have his love child that is if Matt does not have my head first for thinking of it. I told Matt once that i was going to have James love child but it reminds me to much of Will and Grace but who knows. What can i send to Matt that is clean and will remind him of me. I was going to send him panties but he already said no because his mother might flip a wig.

Dobby decided that she needed to hit the plate with my food on it so she got totaly covered in my dinner and instead of running with her body of food she stuck around to clean the bed. Stupid dog. She needs a bath now cause she smells like soup and crackers. Dad needs to die because he bought short trashcans so that the dog can get into it and then he yells at the dog. Men are dumb. Okay guys i am out of ideas so i loves you.